Album: Searching Through the Changes

Memories have a way of looking grand
Recollections loom in what you still plan
They can keep you hanging on, when you need to evolve
They’re still lobbying strong
Maybe it’s time you tell them so long

Memories can lay claim to all you’ve gained
They can rearrange what you’re trying to change
They can bring you to your knees, you might beg, you might bleed
But they’ll deflect the blame
Maybe it’s time you pack them away

Memories can be made everyday
Souvenirs of time like pictures framed
And you’ll cherish lots of them, and yet others remain
And they’ll pose as your friends
Maybe it’s time you trade those ones in

I’ve given up smoking, took up walking around the block
Fixing what’s broken, watching the clock
Blocking out visions, of your memory behind my eyes
Changing up habits, to trick what’s inside

Cause you’ll never come back
Seems your last kiss rehearsed that
You’ll never come back this time

I’m waking up early, say my prayers for the new day
Turn on the shower, try and wash you away
The weeks have gone so slow, I finally planned us a trip this time
Guess I’ll be traveling solo, try and leave you behind

Cause you’ll never come back
Seems your last kiss rehearsed that
You’ll never come back this time

Cause you’ll never come back
guess I’m still trying to own that
You’ll never come back this time

Caught a glimpse some time ago, a world of saving grace
No more wounded, weary hearts, no need for saving face

It struck me numb like a lightening flash, shot through my skin and bones
Oh at a loss how to react, to hide or to be made known

Hear my prayers that are hidden still, and calm my frightened heart
Teach my soul in this brave new world, to know how great thou art

Grant me strength to tarry on, to trust your stepping stones
My prayers are torn in daily pleas, to hide or to be made known

Hear my prayers that are hidden still, and calm my frightened heart
Teach my soul in this brave new world, to know how great thou art

Searching through the burnt house digging through the ash
Climbing through the attic sorting out the past
Searching in the desert stumbling through the sand
Wrestling with the angel to bless me cause he can

Searching through the changes listening for a song
Scouting out the hillside for words that don’t belong
Searching till my headaches fighting unbelief
Calling on the doctor to warrant me relief

And when I feel like caving in
I’ll just remember where you’ve been

And I’ll find you, find you out
Find you in rewards in every do without
I’ll find you, find you out
Find you every time I don’t give in, but hold out

Searching through the poor house handing out a meal
I’m joining with a rally to break up backroom deals
Searching through the nursery looking in the crib
I’m nurturing a garden living off the grid
And I’m searching through those good times when life’s been as it should
Sipping on a cocktail of all that I’ve withstood

And when I feel like giving in
I’ll just remember where you’ve been

And I’ll find you, find you out
Find you in rewards in every do without
I’ll find you, find you out
Find you every time I don’t give in, but hold out

Time is a weapon waged on the Young at heart
Fires rage through the dry spells
The once fertile fields
Can you feel what you used to love

There comes a time when you close the book
When you start to forget what the fire took
And the once well wishes that drove you on
Are waving you off of the road

Well I don’t know what you’ve got over me now
But I feel like it’s coming together
And now I think I remember

So ask a trusted confidant
Cause the world won’t see you the way you want
Your aim is simply a wasted shot
That’s chasing for something you feel, but…

A little luck can rouse the bones and clear out a path that was overgrown
A bird’s eye view of the great unknown
Can show you what you used to love

Well I don’t know what you’ve got over me now
But I feel like it’s coming together
And now I think I remember

And I’ll raise my glass, toast the coming future and the past, my true intentions
oh, oh…come again…

Well I don’t know what you’ve got over me now
But I feel like it’s coming together
Oh yes, I think I remember

Hear the water, is it rising, smell the fire on my horizon
Inching closer sweet and tortured, final warning come green grass or scorched earth

I’ve gone to far, I’ll go a little more
I feel the start of what I have in store
I’ve gone to far, I’ll go a little more
Now I can’t remember why I stopped before, why I stopped before

Body’s aching, skin is sweating, the well has run dry, my mind’s forsaking
But easy does it, there’s no need to retreat, I’ll just rise above it
Like new grass through concrete

I’ve gone to far, I’ll go a little more
I feel the start of what I have in store
I’ve gone to far, I’ll go a little more
Now I can’t remember why I stopped before, why I stopped before

Cause I used to love you and you used to own me
Just one more for old time sake
And then I’ll brake free…

I’ve gone to far, I’ll go a little more
I feel the start of what’s the final score
I’ve gone to far, I’ll go a little more
Now I can’t remember why I stopped before, why I fought before

Someday I’ll let you down
There will come a time when I have strung you around
And you won’t want to stay
Just as soon toss away what we’ve started here

Someday I’ll make you mad
There will come a time when you have stood all you can
And you’ll be ready to leave
And you’ll doubt to believe in what we’ve started here

But I know that we will survive
We’ve got a vision that’s stored deep inside
And there’s kids on the way
And our love though it sways finds its course in time

Today lets both make amends
There are more words to this song we can lend
So let’s try again
We will fight to defend what we’ve started here

But I know that we will survive
We’ve got a vision that’s stored deep inside
And there’s kids on the way
And our love comes in wave
Yes there’s babies on the way
And our love though it sways finds its course in time

You say you love the first impression
Laying the foundation of what’s begun
You love the start of chamber music
But you’re always refusing the movement next to come
You mostly shop for satisfaction
Feeding the attraction of buying something that’s rare
It’s, “on to the next” that fuels your outcome
It’s laying down a cash sum for something you’ll never wear

And when the newness passes and the conversation lags
When the song has finished its first verse
The thrill is fading quickly, just like a desert’s spring
‘Cause you only like the beginnings of things

A five course meal just leaves you restless
Never mind what taste’s best it’s too long to commit
Your perfect job is always the next one
And the position you’ll soon leave from is just not the right fit

To stay just makes you shiver
there’s no way I could deliver that novel forecast just in view…

‘Cause when the newness passes and the conversation lags
When the song has finished its first verse
The thrill is fading quickly, just like a desert’s spring
‘Cause you only like the beginnings of things

Can’t seem to shake it, worry a wound to kill the time
Can’t even fake it, my foe will never take a dive
I’ve grown weary trying to push the future back
I’m getting older, this wagon’s filled with artifacts
The past is lying this trail is growing hard to track

Ever paint a scene, find the borders bleed into the mountains
Watch a gentle stream wonder if it leads into a fountain
Wash and guide me calm just like a baby’s cradle song

Torn from the binding, stark empty page and fountain pen
My God He sees me, hope time has lapsed since my last sin
Inside I’m swimming, veins of bewildered DNA
Praying for ransom, you’re only worth what one will pay
I’m past denying, still moving on come what may

Ever paint a scene, find the borders bleed into the mountains
Watch a gentle stream wonder if it leads into a fountain
Wash and guide me calm just like a baby’s cradle song
Wash and guide me on just like a baby’s cradle song

Babe I’m in awe of your coy redirection
The cards you deal and your slight of hand
The air of mystery blows a new direction
How can your trump card show whenever you command

Your just playing your hand, playing your hand, loving the man you drew
Playing your hand, playing your hand, keeping your man off cue
Playing your hand, playing your hand, making the man pursue
Seems I’ll never know your plan so I’ll just follow suit

There’s several suits in play all primed for your intentions
There’s a club for sure when we don’t get along
You call a spade a spade when I’ve been acting strangely
And it’s the hearts that fall when your hear that I was wrong

Your just playing your hand, playing your hand, loving the man you drew
Playing your hand, playing your hand, keeping your man off cue
Playing your hand, playing your hand, making the man pursue
Seems I’ll never know your plan so I’ll just follow suit

You know my ace is sleeping in the nursery
You let me play the king when I’m feeling mighty tough
But you’re the queen that sparkles like a diamond
I’m still the joker, you just call my bluff
Your just playing your hand, playing your hand, loving the man you drew
Playing your hand, playing your hand, keeping your man off cue
Playing your hand, playing your hand, making the man pursue
Seems I’ll never know your plan so I’ll just follow suit
Seems I’ll never know your hand so I’ll just follow suit